Going the distance!

I recently started working in the office at my daughter's school. It's not your typical school. It's a center for children with autism. I love the fact each child is being reached on their particular level. There is such a peaceful presence when you walk in the door.

We started out at home until we thought she was ready to make the move into public schools. Unfortunately, that didn't work. It was a complete failure. Thankfully, a friend was starting this center and it has been a God-send! She has flourished since being out of the house and around others. Her language has really taken off... what an awesome thing!!

Today, I had the distinct pleasure of talking to a mom who's child was recently diagnosed with autism. In a moment, all of the emotions I felt came back in a flood. I wanted to reach through the phone and just give her a hug. No one understands me like another mom with a child with autism. You understand my daily worries and struggles. You get me and my kid and for that I'm eternally grateful! I wanted to make it all better for her. I wanted to go to her home and help her. I offered her everything I knew I could, without overwhelming her. I have the tendency to do that...lol! But, as much as I wanted to help her, I can't do it all. Some things you have to go through yourself. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger, right?

Recently a friend said to me... "no one is going to take your daughter across the finish line but YOU! No BCBA! No tutor! No one, but YOU!"

She's right, if Lauren is going to get better, I have to be the CEO of this business and run it like a business. I know it may sound crazy and impersonal. But, think about all of the ins and outs involved... you have to run it like a business. No fooling around with the bottom line. What's the bottom line? Lauren is the bottom line! God gave her to me for a reason and whatever the reason... He must have felt I could handle the challenge and both of our lives would be fruitless without each other.

So, I encourage you to take ownership of your child's future. Arm yourself with the know-how. You have been given a task and some One thought you could handle it or He would have give it to someone else!

Carpe Diem!

You are a hard habit to break.

Three years ago we removed all gluten and casein from my daughter's life on a suggestion from her Dr. Whether internally or on the skin, we made sure all things containing gluten or casein were banished, but not completely from the house. My husband and I still ate products that contained them. I tried to be very careful with cross contamination. We had a few infractions during this time. My elderly mother was living with us and she is old school... giving food is a sign of love. I think some of the worst infractions came from her unwittingly.

Although we decided to try this as an experiment to see if it would help with her autism (oh and it did!). It wasn't until later my daughter and I were tested for food allergies. I'm really glad we did this to see what other allergens we didn't know about. This is when I found out about my allergies to gluten and casein also.

Since I was a child I wondered about the times I couldn't finish our Saturday morning rituals of pancakes or pizza Friday nights. It always found me in the bathroom very sick and no energy for a couple days. I think I passed it off as it wasn't something I ate on a regular basis and it didn't agree with me. After the test results it made so much sense.

I've known for 2 years now I'm allergic to gluten and all dairy products. But, for some reason I'm still ingesting gluten and casein on a daily bases. I'm sick just about everyday and have little to no energy. Why in the world do I do this to myself? If you knew it wasn't good for you wouldn't you just stop? I honestly feel like an addict. I need to remember how I felt when I was "clean" for about 30 days. I felt so good! I know this may sound crazy, but I felt good in my head. I thought better and had more energy and with my daughter's autism on the daily agenda I need to have all the energy I can muster. Seriously, why is this so hard. I quit smoking.... I quit drinking or did I? I recently read an article of the connection between alcoholism and gluten allergy. I've wondered why in the past several years since I gave my life back to the Lord and quit drinking why I would crave the taste of a beer. I have struggled with this thinking what is wrong with my walk with the Lord can't I get this straight. But, after reading this article it all came together. I'm getting my gluten fix just not from beer. Now this puts an entire different spin on this. Wow!

In light of this, I'm taking the plunge again. Tomorrow is my d-day. I have to say I'm scared to death and I haven't a clue why. All I know is, I see people who are older than I who run circles around me. I'm tired of feeling poorly all the time. It's time! It's time to live healthier and think healthier. My family needs me and I need me to be better.

So you bad gluten and casein proteins be go with thee!! New recipes and feeling better come on in and sit down for awhile! Let's do this!!